Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Adopting with my eyes wide open...a new resolve!


If you've spent anytime around me lately then you know I've gone a little wonky. Yes, we're adopting and yes, I've become a little preoccupied and anxious (okay, so maybe obsessed and anxious would better define my personality traits as of late). I've been trying to settle in during this next phase of waiting and have been struggling...very much! I'm not pleasant to be around and I know it. Ugh!

But...


I am making a new resolve! I've already talked it out with God and almost feel obligated to talk it out with you too...(who are you???) :)

Maybe it was the Sunday sermon about Abraham's faith, or maybe it was the forgotten stanza of the old hymn "Great is Thy faithfulness" that talks about "strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow" or maybe it happened when I opened my iTalk to God app on my phone and saw this...

"After these things the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision, saying, Do not fear Abram, I am a shield to you; Your reward shall be very great."                           - Genesis 15:1
Followed by "God gives you a shield of faith. This shield protects you by extinguishing all flaming arrows from the enemy, including what is making you fearful.

And then I saw this...

"Do not fear them, for the LORD your God is the one fighting for you."         -Deuteronomy 3:22
Followed by "Moses reminded Joshua that God will fight the battle for the Promised Land. You have God on your side. Does your anxious situation stand a chance? No." 

Or yet maybe I found this new resolve when I was raking leaves and under the leaves was a rock...that jumped out at me because it looked exactly like a heart!

Seriously...when you open your eyes and look all around, God is everywhere! I think we tune Him out with our self absorbed tendencies and (a lot of times) self imposed problems. Why do I/we do that!?!

Back to this new resolve. From this point forward (and in all honesty probably with a few slip ups) I am resolving to quit being a basket case and to look for Him...everywhere...to seek after Him. To find my strength and happy place in Him.

Quitting

I need to quit reading into things. I need to quit obsessing. I need to quit fretting. I need to quit wondering "what if". I need to quit trying to make this adoption process fit into my wants/needs and timeframes. I need to quit allowing satan to trip me up and getting me to take my eyes off the one that deserves my attention.

Starting

I need to start enjoying the here and now (because we aren't promised tomorrow anyway). I need to start looking up (and all around) at Him. I need to have full confidence and faith that God hears my prayers and knows what is best for me. He loves me. My husband keeps telling me that sometimes it's not satan that is tripping us up, sometimes it's God allowing a situation to happen in our lives to see how we handle it. Epic fail on my part because I've been handling things...not so well. I've been sad, I've attached myself to my phone so I can check my email every 5 minutes, I've talked endlessly about how hard this wait is and most importantly, I've not been growing the way I should be. Through this adoption so many wonderful things have happened yet I've dwelled on the negative. Shame on me. I need to spend more time reading God's word and more time talking to Him. I need to soak up each and every moment of this life...especially with my husband and kids and I need to hug my pugs often.

To sum up this resolve (or rant)...

We will get that call (or email) that allows us to move onto the next step. We will get a court date. We will come up with enough money to pay for the two trips. We will fly over there and meet our unbelievably sweet daughter and LORD willing, we will bring her home...all in His time.


Sunday, October 6, 2013

Adoption...a little of our story

Adoption. It's hard. It just is. But...it's going to be worth it, that I am certain of.

I thought maybe it was time to give a little background about us and how we came to the decision to adopt. We are in our (upper) forties, we have two grown sons and we aren't completely crazy like some think. Most people in our situation (age, adult children, etc) are anxiously looking forward to the empty nest and all the freedom that comes along with it. Not us (obviously), no, we find ourselves with some more parenting left in us. I need to tell you that we didn't just wake up one morning and think it was a good idea to adopt at our age. It is actually something that God placed on our hearts a number of years ago. There has always been a desire to add to our family but a few unfortunate circumstances prevented us from doing so. A number of years ago we started supporting orphans in her country through an organization that we still support to this day. It really opened our eyes to the need. In April of 2012 we decided to step out on faith and start the adoption process. Adding a small child to our life is going to be a big adjustment and we couldn't be more excited! Like I said before, adoption is hard...on so many levels; the emotional ups and downs, the constant wondering if someone will say no and shut the whole thing down, the waiting...oh the waiting...if you've adopted you understand, if you haven't it's impossible to explain. We are still months away from flying across the ocean and bringing her home. We have a few hurdles left to jump but it feels like it's getting a little closer...like it might actually happen. Her room is ready, our hearts are more than ready and the pugs wonder daily when she's going to get here already. I'd love to share more details but we don't want to take any chances so we choose to  be guarded...for now. Someday we'll be able to blast pictures all over this little blog and on facebook...someday soon hopefully.

Friday, July 12, 2013

Unfaithful

Almost six months since I've had anything to say here.....really?? I don't even know where time goes. It seems to go by so fast and yet it drags on. I have a million words to write but yet I don't write any. So much has happened in the last six months but I don't even know where to begin. On the adoption front, we are still waiting.....forever waiting.....it's excruciating but necessary. We're making progress but things move soooooooo very slowly in the adoption world.....at least in the country we're working with. We're working on her room. It's coming together nicely. I will do a series of posts on the room soon.....in case anyone is interested. Life is good. Everyone is healthy. The pugs are still chubby. My heart is still longing for our sweet little girl who is trapped in an orphanage many miles away. The garden is exploding...I'll get a post up about that too. We're still dividing our time between home and our home away from home up north. I haven't learned anything new about my big girl camera lately. Hmmm.....what else?? My crafting list is a mile long and I'm not making much headway. I'm currently re-reading Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen. We've been getting a lot of rain so my hammock time has been limited.....and I miss it very much. My sweet traveling man and I have been reading the bible together (many times over the phone) and I'm enjoying it.....the intimate time where we can connect together with the word of God. We've studied fasting and are applying the principals of prayer and fasting to our lives on a regular basis and I am blown away by God's goodness.....no.....His greatness!!! I"m blessed and I'm trying to remember that on a daily basis.


Monday, December 24, 2012

Christmastime

"The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree: the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other." 
~Burton Hillis

Christmas is here! Can you feel it!?!


Friday, November 30, 2012

Zippy Strippy Quilt

Waiting, it's one of the many things I'm learning to do these day. For anyone involved in an international adoption, you know that you wait...a lot. You wait for an email or a phone call or an important piece of mail. You wait to see the face of someone you already have fallen hopelessly in love with, to find out about her little life up to now. Waiting, waiting, waiting...especially for the day when you can fly across the ocean to whatever country you are adopting from and bring that special someone home. It's brutal and almost cruel, this thing called waiting.

I'm thankful for the waiting...it means we're moving from step to step. It may also mean that I'm learning some much needed patience, or at least trying to learn. God is teaching me lessons through this adoption that He knows I need to learn. Thank you God!

Keeping busy helps the time go by.

The other week I made a Zippy Strippy Quilt. I've made at least a dozen over the past few years. They are a quick project and always turn out beautiful.

This particular quilt was made for the one I'm waiting for. When I look at it, I see her safe and warm, snuggling up on our couch, knowing that she is loved and wanted!!

Picking out the fabric for one of these quilts is a fun process...it was even more fun for this particular project. You can't tell from the photo, but the blue corduroy has glitter all over it.
I love bright colors...and polka dots!

Little piles of fabric...they're waiting too.

Neat  "sandwiches" waiting to be sewed.

You only need to sew straight lines, which is a good thing because that's all I know how to sew.

Snip and wash is all that is left to do.

The finished project! It's warm, and snuggly...and waiting for her!

Lily wanted to check out the snuggle factor.

I think it passed the test...

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Scavenger Hunt Sunday- 2nd attempt

Well to be honest I feel like I know less about my camera now than I did a week ago...I can't wait to get that aha moment.

1) Wild:

We had the privilege of going to Sydney and Cameron's cheering competition yesterday...I am absolutely Wild about these two gals.



2) Welcome:

This is the Welcome you'll see if you come knocking on my front door this time of year.



3) Adventure:

I have always been fascinated with the thought of fairies! So much that I've concocted a plan to hide a fairy door in our woods and create a story that I can tell my grandkids...someday. I can only imagine the Adventures that go on behind that door!



4) Vibrant:

I bought fabric to make a Zippy Strippy Quilt  for someone VERY special. I wanted it to be bright and Vibrant not to mention Comfy and Cozy!



5) Classic

Even though I'm not completely pleased with the results and will stick with my tried and true chocolate cake recipe in the future, I love a Classic chocolate cake with chocolate icing...and so do the men in my life. :)

I can't wait to get started with next weeks list!



Sunday, October 28, 2012

My First Scavenger Hunt Sunday

Okay...I am going to attempt to join in on Scavenger Hunt Sunday. I need to let everyone know that I've been a point and shoot gal all my life. Back in February I finally got up the nerve to buy a Big Girl Camera but have been too afraid to go off the auto setting. I finally enrolled in a basic Photography class and have been to one session. I honestly have no idea what I am doing...but I'm excited to learn. It was fun playing with different setting, even if the results weren't the greatest.

Here goes...

1. Pattern(s)
This fence goes on and on...like a big zig-zag




2. Machine
I looked all week for something that I could "shoot" and came up empty...this was my feeble last minute attempt to complete the assignment. 




3. Signs or Logos
The Sheetz logo is an icon in my neck of the woods. I can be found carrying a Sheetz coffee cup on most days. 




4. Rocks or Stones
I actually have a photo of some rocks in my yard but I was moving these rock-like bags of applesauce to a different freezer and couldn't help but smile when I looked down into the box. My niece helped me make the applesauce and decorated the bags. She's a girl after my own heart! 




5. Sparkle
My favorite photo of the week...hands down! I wish it would have been a little clearer but the subject in the photo makes my heart go pitter patter. I love my Freddie and the "sparkle" in his eyes! 

Well that's it. My first attempt. I can honestly say that things can only get better the more I learn and practice. This was fun!